I love westies.

I LOVE WESTIES. I'll defenitely get my children westies in the future!

Why is life full of choices??

[Picture: This is my all time signature dish - hot and sour soup.]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I am very confused recently. What should I do next in my life? Giving birth to children as soon as possible? Or going to study to become a nurse before having children? I definitely love being a massage therapist at the moment. I am thinking about my future. I do not think I will stay at the spa forever. Honestly, the inconsistent unprofessionalism at work annoys me from time to time. I need to learn how to overcome it- yes, leaving will be the last and only solution. It is just there are things I can't let go right now and I don't have the courage to leave. Can anyone sell me some pills for courage?

I am 28. Will I be too old to be a mother if I delay being a mother for 2 years in case I am going to be a nurse? I will be high-rist pregnant woman. It is not fair, men do not need to worry about the ticking biological clock like women do.



I still remember I was very frustrated when I came to the U.S. 5 years ago. I couldn't find any decent jobs even though I graduated from college. I started working at the bakery and I quit once I saved enough money to go to massage school. Whenever I meet my classmates in my O.T. class, I felt really bad that I couldn't become an occupational therapist here. They are all OTs now and have finished their master degrees. I feel like a loser. I did try to send an email to UW and see if I could enroll into their master program. I gave up easily because they didn't answer me. Anyway, it was a year ago.



Today, I am planning to be a mother. But, do I really want to just stay home for like 10 years before I go back to work? No, I am driven person, I want to achieve something in my life like others do. It is not because of making lots of money but reassuring myself. I am not a stupid person. I want to have a career which allows me to go back to work anytime when my children are in school during the day. I guess, being a nurse will be it.



I have made an appointment with a career counselor of the Lake Washington Technical College on coming Tuesday.



God, please tell me what path you want me to take. I am very confused. -__- I need support.