New Goal, New Life

[Picture: Dolphins at the SeaWorld...they are so mean!! They don't let you pet them if you don't buy food to feed them!!]

Yeah! I finally made up my mind and signed up for the online real estate course. Learning new things will keep my brain young. :-p I hope I will enjoy it. And, anyway it will be too boring to have nothing to do at work when it is slow, why not making use of the time and study? :-D I may switch my career after being a mother. I am so exicted about it.

Poor me, I've been suffering from the flu after coming back from Orlando....couldn't sleep well for nights. My nose was always stuffy and my sore throat is KILLING me. Gosh...this time, eating ice cream doesn't seem to work. #___# !

We called 911...

What an 'unforgettable' trip we had today. We went to the Olympic game farm in Sequim today. It was absolutely fun. Since it was a long drive, I offered to drive all of us home. My driving was okay- no speeding up or tailgating others. After a while, I saw an ordinary white car behind us in the rear mirror. It was about 150feet behind us. When I looked at the rear mirror again after a few seconds, it was right behind me!! That was the trooper with its siren on. I didn't know if I was asked to pull over. I was suspecting if I was doing anything wrong. (It shouldn't be since I was not driving over the speed limit.) Anyway, I tried to steer to the shoulder. (Damn, it was not wide enough to be called a shoulder actually.) The car was in the ditch immediately. #_# Then, I realized that the trooper was only trying to pass us but not pull ME over. Then, no matter how hard I and Steve tried, the car couldn't get back to the road. We kept sitting in the car. He called 911 and noticed the state patrol. Shit. We were on SR104 South Bound. We couldn't tell them the exact location. We were in the middle of nowhere!! While we were waiting for the police, I was shivering. I didn't know how long it would take... I felt so guilty. Suddenly, there was a truck stopped in front of us, a couple got off the truck and walked towards us and see if we were okay or needed any help. That was very kind of them. Fortunately, none of us got hurt. We thanked them for their concern and let them know that we already called the police. Then, an 'Olympic Ambulence' stopped by and did the same thing. Again, we appreciated the concern the lady showed us. After a couple minutes, a gentleman stopped behind us and checked if we needed a cell phone. They were all very kind. After he left, we kept waiting for the police. Suddenly, a red 4X4 truck from the on coming traffic making an U-turn and stopped in front of us and see if they could help us. Two guys (they might be road or construction workers) jumped off and told us that they had a rope and it might be able to pull our car out of the ditch. They tried very hard. Eventually, our car was out of the ditch. We were all so excited and very thankful for their help. The state patrol arrived. Another old lady drove by and asked if we needed help. Afterwards, one guy was lying on the ground and tried so hard to untide the rope at the bottom of our car. We were all very thankful for their help. It could have taken hours to call a toll truck since it was on a highway in the Penisular. When I was getting back into to car and grabbed my wallet to pay them (at the same time, my dad was taking money out of his wallet to them too), those two men refused to take our money. They were so helpful and kind. At first, I thought they were from a toll truck company. I didn't know that they were just passer-by until Steve told me. It was very surprising that how many nice and kind people out there still. Of course, I learnt an important lesson:

-Never offer to drive if I'm not familiar with the area

-When we think others may need help, we should stop and check. Be generous always, we never know when we need others to help us.

I was very, very lucky. What if it happened in a rainy day or at night? What if we were injured?? Thank God for sending nice people to help us. We will do the same to others when they need help.

Rainy days and Mondays always get me down...

[Pic: Flower World in Maltby. 9322 196th St.SE, Snohomish, WA 98296]

It's been raining for days...We were supposed to go to Leavenworth yesterday. But the weather was really bad. At last, we stayed home and watched movies. It was boring to stay home the whole day!! So, we drove all the way to Bellevue and had dinner at our favourite Cantonese restaurant - Cafre Ori. In my opinion, I still cannot find any Chinese restaurants as good as this one! We never leave without eating their curry beef and pan-fried squid. I hope we will find places serving yummy food in Orlando. Right, we are leaving for Orlando tonight. Yeah! I am really tired of the rain... My mood is somehow affected by the weather. Anyway, I'll pack a swimming suit!! I can't wait~~

I don't know what I should do

It's 10:30am now. I feel really upset. He is playing the damn online game. He said he would wake me up at 9:30am but he didn't. So, I guess it was because he was so addicted to the game. His playing game has been bothering me for 3 years. He looks like his soul has gone whenever he plays. Well, comparing to how bored he looked yesterday during lunch and dinner, he looked totally different when he's playing the game. Sometimes, I dobut he is living in the virtual world. Maybe I am being unfair to him, always trying to compare him with other men in the 40s who do not seem like playing online games. He's in his early 30s and so are his friends. Honestly, I don't like them acting like kids even though they have children already.

Right now, I really don't know what I should do. I am tired of myself yelling at him. I'll just sit here in the bedroom and find something to do.

I feel that he is selfish. I'll end my life when I cannot take it anymore. Because, if I leave, I actually have nowhere to go.

I feel inferior and have lost myself.

So, my parents are finally here. They arrived Wednesday night. Before we picked them up, we walked around in the airport and saw a man collecting donations for the people in need. I can't remember the organization's name but I remember what he said to us after we made our donations. "Don't give up". I'll try. But, I just feel that sometimes there are things we can't control. *sigh*

On the 15th, it was mostly overcast. We had lunch at the Clay Oven, an Indian restaurant. The food was great. Afterwards, we walked at the grocery store and picked up some veggies for our dinner. At night, I made a cheesecake, cooked some crab legs and stir-fried some asparagus with carrots. We watched a movie together. "Love Undercover"-a very funny Hong Kong movie.

Everything seemed okay.

16th, we had vietnamese noodles for lunch in Redmond. On our way home, we went to the Flower World in Maltby. It was huge! I love seeing flowers, especially sniffing the herbs. But, Steve was quiet and walking alone. I didn't know if I did anything wrong and upset him. I felt so lonely suddenly. We always walk everywhere together. That day, he left me alone. Plus, I don't know why I actually don't want to be very close to my parents. I am seldom interested in what they talk about. My dad always asks questions about money, brags about how much he knows and criticizes everything. My mom doesn't use her brain usually. She only follows my dad and complains to me about what she doesn't like about dad. I seldom ask her things since she usually says she doesn't know. Whenever my dad starts to say negative things, I chose to pretend not hearing him, ignore him or simply walk away. I know, if I respond to him, an endless quarrel will be triggered. I want peace. I shut down. My mom never really cares about me, she cares about money. Fine. I gave them all of the cash I had saved. I don't know if they're happy or not. But anyway, I can't force myself to be close to them. I gave up. I just feel very lonely when my husband is not with me sometimes. At night, they probably didn't like the food I made. Dad was criticizing the chow mein having too much vegetables. Mom didn't like my cheesecake and spit it out into the garbage. They never appreciated how much I had worked. Hey, I am having a vacation, how come I have become a maid doing cooking and cleaning?? Cooking and cleaning are fine but it was really frustrating to be criticized endlessly. What do you want?? I was so disappointed and told Steve that I didn't want to cook for them anymore. Just dine out every night. I don't care!!

17th. We drove to Gig Harbor to see Mom and Jim. I know, it is very strange. But, I do feel so much more comfortable to talk to my mother-in-law than to my own parents. I can talk about everything with her. She is a very nice lady. I love her a lot and I am always thankful for having her being my mom-in-law. We went to Tacoma for dinner. I ordered my favorite Phad Thai. Then, we went to the Great Wall Mall and Fry's in Renton.

18th. We went to Ming's Place for dim sum. Steve kept turning his head away. I had no clues. As usual, I was not interested in what my dad said, I remained silent and just ate my food. I felt so upset inside. But there was nothing I could do. Afterwards, we walked around in BestBuy and Bellevue Square. Nothing speical... As I didn't want to hear anymore complaints, we dined out for dinner at Red Robin. Man, they are so hard to please. I could tell from my mom's face, she didn't like the food. WHATEVER! Steve kept turning his head away again. I felt so bad and upset. He wasn't like that in the past... What could I do? Remained silent again. I hate having such a painful vacation. I feel very inferior now...I don't want to beg for love, care, or anything. It is very hard for me. I want to make him feel happy. But I don't want to make myself feel miserable. I feel inferior. I have lost myself.

I don't think he reads my blog. I don't want to talk about it with my parents or friends. I may talk about it with my mom-in-law later. At the moment, I can only express my feelings by typing my blog.

I hate myself.

Mar 13, I am still scared.

[Pic: This is mom's puppy-Sparkie (chihuahua). I didn't keep any pets before. When I firstly saw Sparkie, he could scare me to death. But he's just a tiny little dog. Well, I'm not afraid of dogs now.]

So, I was like a deflated balloon the whole day Tuesday. I went to work. The heart breaking words repeated in my mind over and over again. Everyone could tell from my swollen eyes that I had cried a lot. But I didn't say anything about it. Talking to him on msn messenger, he sounded okay that day. Maybe it was really a emotional release once in a while (I hope). I never saw him look so upset like that. I was scared. We talked and tried to figure out ways to improve our relationship. I should work less and spend more time at home. He complained that I used to cook a lot of dishes he liked when I did not work so much. I know. We used to go for a walk after dinner. We used to dine out with friends and have fun. Everything has changed. All of his friends we used to dine out with are having their own families (i.e. with children). They go home to play with their kids. Anyway, we dined out that night...just wanted to relax and talk more. But I was still very scared. I had to be very careful not to upset him again. I should learn to not to be myself sometimes.

At last, I asked if he would take his words back. He said, 'yes'. Anyway, I'll change myself.

Mar12th, I almost ended my life...

[Pic: Sometimes, I think life might be easier if I'm not a human-being.]

I was so frustrated with my job. When I saw Steve as he picked me up, I thought I could talk to him and express my feelings. I was wrong. He remained silent while driving home. He only told me that we needed to talk. I had no clues what was going on.

After we were home, he sat down and asked, 'Do you think we want the same thing in our lives?' 'Yes, of course,'I replied. Then, he told me that he had never ever wanted to have children even though he had tried to like them. So, I supposed, he implied that we were not going to have any children in the future. I felt extremely bad and sad. I left the house in tears, sitting at the side yard and called Mandy. I really couldn't accept it. We'd been planning to be parents in a year or two. I was very mad. It was too cold outside, I went back to the house and saw him crying.

My heart melted when I saw him crying. I had to choose between him and having a baby. Fine, I would still choose to be with him. I told him that. Then, he started to tell me it had been a while since he felt that we're like strangers living in the same house, that we quarreled over many things a lot lately, that we didn't have the same hobbies and that we wanted different things in our lives. He didn't feel happily married. He couldn't sleep well every night recently because he had been thinking about it. He even told me that he had been pretending to be nice to me because he did not like to hurt anybody (me). He wish I was being cruel instead of nice to him. He told me that he could love me as deeply as I loved him. He felt that he didn't have the passion for me ...and he had more passion with his ex girlfriends. He said that he couldn't hide his feelings. He couldn't take it anymore.

Every single words I heard was totally heart-breaking for me. I couldn't believe what I heard that evening. I apologized to him that I had been working too much and being stressed out from work. I was sorry about bringing all the negative thoughts from work to home. I have emotional breakdowns very often because of work. But, honestly, he has been really busy and stressful too from his work as I always see him checking his phone/PC while driving.

Anyway, I felt terrible that night. I couldn't stop crying at all. When it was bed time, I grabbed my keys and sat in the car, crying..... I was going to drive somewhere and get a car accident...or just started the engine and inhaling carbon monoxide while falling into sleep in the car. He found me and asked me to get out of the car. I still couldn't stop crying...I felt like losing everything...I felt helpless, I didn't want to call my parents (I don't feel very close to them), my mom-in-law or my friends. I always believe he's the only person I can talk to anytime, no matter what happens. That moment, I lose that person too since he told me he'd been just pretending to be nice to me. 'I am a loser. No one loves me.' I couldn't think of anything but killing myself. But he was afraid that I would kill myself, he kept making sure I fell into sleep before he slept. Eventually, I was too tired and fell into sleep. But, we both didn't sleep well that night.

The following day he said he was sorry that he hurt me. Actually, I thought it was good for him to release his emotion. He must have held it for a long time. But, I never thought that every single words he said was so heart-breaking. My heart was broken into millions of pieces...and I never ever imagined 'divorce' might happen to me. That was very scary.

Well, I have a emotional breakdown pretty often. So, I guess it's his turn. Anyway, I know, I have been too harsh to him. I should try to do things to make him happy. To be continued..

When will I land on a right work place?

[Pic: Isn't he cute? I used to see him everyday at the clinic I worked for before. That's our receptionist's puppy.]

It is still hard to accept what happened on Monday. I almost ended my own life. Firstly, I found that we'd have to pay $5000 for tax this year. The main reason is that my boss claims me working as an independent contractor, i.e. I am self-employed. This is absolutely bullshit. I am always working as an employee, following the dress code and working according to the work schedule. What made me extremely mad was that I was not told that I was the ONLY 'self-employed' person. She had changed everyone else to be an employee since January. I did not know about it until Brandy told me. Brandy said Dana thought that I was going to be pregnant so that she didn't tell me to be an employee. THANKS, bitch. Now, we have to pay more taxes because I OWN my business. You know, you are violating the law! I can tell the IRS to audit your business and they will find out what you are exactly doing.

I couldn't stop crying when I thought about what I had been doing for the past year. I worked really hard. But, at the same time, someone was selfish and trying to pay less tax by forcing me to be an independent contractor while working as an employee.

If I ever find a job again, I WILL NEVER WORK FOR CHINESE.

That hurts my self-esteem. I feel like a fool working there for her. -_- I feel that I am a very useless person.

Disappointing...

[Sharing an old picture: meeting with my best friends in OT class in October 2003. I miss them.]

Tim and Liz were getting rid of a piano. Steve tried to surprise me by getting it for me without letting me know. TOO BAD. I knew it!! Hehehe...and I've been SO excited about it since then. He was supposed to pick it up today. BUT, it was raining. :-( We have to wait until the weather is okay. Where does the sun go?? I played keyboard and piano for a while when I was young. I gave up because I focused on my study when I was 7th grade. (Form 1, as in British Education System.) I've been wanting to play it again. Soon, my dream will come true.

Talking about 'dreams come true', I have to mention that I hated being called 'fat girl' since I was young, like 9 or 10. Hey! Actually, most of the girls in class were underweight! I was not. But people called me 'fat girl'. Later on, I admitted that I overate fast food and I was about 130lb when I was 22. Gosh, I had McDonald's food every other day! Besides, I was stressed out from school and work. (I had 3 part time jobs that time!) EXCUSES!! hehehe... Today, I am sure that I am not fat anymore in anybody's eyes. I work out everyday. I've lost almost 25lb since I moved here. Thanks to my jobs. Working my butt off at the bakery and the spa. Yep, all I did was working and eating right: eat mostly vegetables, less rice and meat. (Well, I still eat junk food sometimes but not as often as in the past.)

There is one food I will never give up: ICE-CREAM. My current favorite is 'Chocolate Mocha Silk'. YUM......... Glad that I don't have kids yet. I don't want to fight for the ice cream with them. LOL. I am sure I'll be a crazy mom. :-p

Another Seahawks player??

Wow! As soon as I finished my lunch today, I was called to do a massage on another Seahawks player - OMG! This was a challenging one. Ray Willis, tackle. He's over 300lb!! I grabbed a stool with me in case I needed it. I remembered him being a bit bossy the last couple of times when I massaged him. It was a while ago though. He 'ordered' me not to work on his back but his legs in the past. So, I wanted to make sure he was satisfied. I asked what he wanted me to focus on this time. "General DEEP TISSUE". Okay, no problem!!

I did the best I could. Amazingly, I didn't feel very exhausted this time. Could it be because he's getting smaller or I'm getting stronger?? LOL. I did really, really deep tissue plus lots of stretchings for his front and back legs. He was satisfied. I sweated a lot though. hehehe...

YEAH!! 106lb is my current weight!! I guess it is because I sweated a lot today!! Great work out!! working on football players 2 days in a row is burning my fat intensively!! LOL. NEAT!! Actually, I am eating less meat and more vegetables these days. I have been eaten spinach for almost a week. Because they were on big sale last week. Hehehehehe ^______^ !! I am getting stronger because of the spinach?! (But I am not Popeye!! hehe..)

Good to see David before my vacation. Did some bowenwork on him. I'll post some more info about bowenwork here later. I've been using bowenwork on people who experience not much result from massages. The next technique I'm going to learn and incorperate in my practise will be Reiki. I will search for reiki classes after coming back from Florida.

I smell hamburger now... I have to eat.

A surprising day~

[Seattle Seahawk's QB, Seneca and Miss CherryPie]

Hehehe...I saw and massaged Seneca today! He is a quarter back in Seahawks (Seattle's Football League). I was so surprised that I saw him again!! Shoot!! I did not carry my digital camera in my purse. Luckily, Mandy used her cell phone to take a picture of us. Yeah. He is SUPER nice, comparing to his teammates whom I massaged before. Hehehe...

5 more working days until my vacation starts. Hooray! I can't wait. I am exhausted. This morning, I took a nap until 11am at work (after doing all of the boring chores). Oops I cut my little finger by pressing the purse back onto the shelf too hard. I didn't remember there were some sharp & big paper clips in my organizer inside the purse. I ran into the bathroom and rinsed my bleeding finger with freaking old water. My finger was numbed. It's better after I put some liquid bandage on it. I guess it is not that bad...and if comparing to giving birth to kids, it is nothing! hohoho... But I just hate to get any cuts on my fingers since I use my hands at work everyday. From now on, I should apply hand cream more often so that they won't be cut so easily.

I am EXTREMELY lazy these days. I don't really cook. Shame on me!! I mainly eat spinach, hams/ chicken nuggets and rice for lunch. The eggplant was too dry and bitter. But I won't throw them away. I should probably stew them with oyster sauce tomorrow night.

Tonight, I bought more king crab legs. ^__^ I stock up for my parents. But I couldn't wait that long, I ate 2 claws tonight already!! Yummy. I love seafood. I might be a cat in my previous life. hehehe...

Detoxify the body

Lately I've been searching for detox tea to cleanse my body. I know that my liver isn't very good since I stay up a lot recently. Well, night time is the only moment I can relax after working for a long day. When we don't sleep enough, our livers are weakened. Anyway, I discovered a herb I've never heard of -rooibos. It contains 50% more antioxidants than green tea. I'm a definite tea lover. (I don't drink coffee. I only love the smell.) Rooibos, dandelions and burdock are common ingredients in detox tea. I want to try rooibos. When I googled it, I further discovered something else, which might be more effective than detox tea to clean the body internally - colonix. I am going to try it and see if it works. I hope it'll help me lose some pounds too. LOL. Honsetly, I lost more than 20lb since moving here from HK. I used to eat out a lot and I usually ate fast food. Now, I've learnt how to cook and I enjoy cooking at home. We eat well.

The big fat liar at work spoke ill of me today...she was jealous of me because Seneca (seahawk QB) was talking to me the other day at the hallway. Yeah, he told me that I gave him the best massage ever and would want me to do it next time because that day I was too busy to take him and he was seeing miss liar. Plus, we were just talking about football... she thought that I was 'stealing' her customers~ *sigh* She really ticked me off many times while doing couple massages. She unreasonably cut customers' time. She suddenly finished the massage at 52min. OMG! It's supposed to be 60min!! I was still working on one person when she told the couples that the massages were over and walked out of the room right away. Oh my!! What could I do? I had to follow her. But she will work overtime if she knows whoever tips her well. #_# What the hell is she thinking??

Miss Brandy almost messed up everyone's schedule again today because she didn't show up without calling. Actually, we all known it's going to happen today. Since she made quite a lot yesterday and she's always like VANISHING for a few days afterwards until she needs cash. But, she still doesn't know that she will be eliminated very soon. Fool.

Just eight more days before I start my vacation. I can't believe how strong my will and my body are. I think it is because I have a very clear goal. I want to pay for everything during my parents' stay. I want to give them a treat. I hope someday my children will be nice to me too. hehe.

12 more days to go

I am soooooo looking forward to my vacation. Dad and mom will arrive on the 14th at 8pm. When they visited me 2 years ago, I was working for the chiropractor who always called me to go to work 2 or 3 hours a few days a week. I couldn't spend the whole time with my parents. I felt bad. But, I was new there and didn't want to say 'no' so soon. hehe... This time, I will be OFF. I've already planned to bring them to some places they haven't been to the last few times - the Olympic game farm, the hurricane ridge, the historical area in Snohomish, etc. Hopefully we will have lots of fun. This time, we are living in a nice neighborhood. They can even go for a walk if they like.

I know mom will make me eat a lot when she's here. I am trying my best to lose some weight before they arrive so that I won't gain too much pounds because of their visit. hehehe.

I can't believe I've been working almost 3 weeks in a row. I arrive work before 8 every morning and then lie on the couch and take a nap until the next person show up and do chores together. Getting off at 6 and sitting in the car for 45 min. Whipping up a quick dinner and some leftovers for the lunch the following day. It is tiring. Thank Brandy for not showing up at work very often, I have to stay until almost 8 last night!! You should call if you can't come to work, it is very basic! My schedule got messed up pretty often. *sigh*

It was nice to see David and Dan yesterday...Seeing my regulars is very encouraging especially when I feel there is no hope for my future working here.

If I overcame the main obstacle: GRE (Graduate Record Exam), I would study my Master degree. I was working on it last year until I was called to work at the current place. I found that I was too tired everyday afterwork. *sigh* My English is not improving at all. In the past, I seriously read the Wall Street Journal at home everyday and learned the vocabulary. I like reading their articles because they used words precisely. I am so lazy. Probably I got the lazy genes from my mom. hahaha.

P.S. Hey, Alfred! (If you read my blog...) Thanks for your letter. I was very surprised. Happy Chinese New Year to you too!! I will write you later.

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee

This is a great message I want to share with all of my readers...

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee
When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed."Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions--and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.The sand is everything else--the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important."Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first--the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Recap...

I officially took over Mandy's clothes. I realized how old-fashion my clothes were. hehe. She even said I didn't dress like a girl at all. Sorry. I have a brother. I was pretty boyish when I was young, playing soccer and video games with my brother. (fighting too! Yep...we thought we were street fighters!) Anyway, I will try to be more womanish.

I've been working really hard lately for my parent's visit in 2 weeks. I only took two days off in February. I still have 13 more days to go. I won't be off until they arrive. It is okay. I am still young. I like to work hard and then play hard.

Gosh, it snowed again. SEVEN inches of snow on the ground when we stepped out our house. It probably the last snow before spring comes. I am tired of all of the storms we had the past few months.

I am still thinking about going to school... sometimes, I feel so frustrated. I am stuck at the place and doing a job which the others without going to schools are doing. Shame on me. I studied hard and kept taking classes but they did not. Why am I doing the same thing as they do? They did not study but solely copying others' moves in the massages. sigh. It seems that the customers don't care... Don't they worry about shoulder dislocations as they didn't know what the mainland Chinese were exactly doing, huh??

I'm searching for Reiki workshops in Seattle area. Can't wait to learn it and help relieve pain for my regular customers who are in pain all the time. And of course, I can use it on myself too. My left neck is very bad. -__-

He writes me a poem!

.........

Hou love you baby! I wrote this for you. I call it “When We Touch”

The warm sand plays upon our feet as we walk along the beach, hand holding hand.
Cooling breezes bring the delicate scent of the ocean gently blowing your long, dark hair.
Shadows play across your face as the setting sun turns the sky to colors so vibrant words cannot describe them.
The music of the water's ebb and flow tickles our ears.
But none of these things do we see. None of these things to we hear. None of these things do we feel.
For at this moment, with a single hand holding a single hand, are our souls entwined as one.
Our love, our fears; our joys and our tears; they are all shared with that simple touch.
That simple connection that says so much. That simple connection that means so much.
As the full moon rises to sparkle brilliantly upon the sea, we feel no cold. We feel not a thing.
For the world is lost to us when we're together. When we live within each other. When we touch.

Love,
Steve